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WHATS SUP! Deviantartist! :D
Ok so let's start for actually show people who I am. However there's one big thing of about myself which is making people laugh and also being odd. Therefore I'll make this into a strange "who am I" thingy.

Born with open hands to the upcoming world.
From a land where laughs were found at every corner until corruption took over.
Never fit in as refused conformity and "following" the crowd.
In love with best friend who brought me happiness even though was not enough for him.
Rejected by the one who introduced drawings and the world of dreamers.
No longer liked by those around.
Moved to millions of places/houses.
Anger issues.
New friends and old childhood friends, life couldnt be better.
MOVED country.
Scared, angry, useless to save father.
New friends, new language of which i have fallen in love with, father saved.
No longer angry, sad, useless. Comedy saved me.
Laughs everywhere, happiness followed.
First kiss, weird braces...not good. it hurt though likable.
MOVED no more boyf... distances dont work on me.
New friends but still in contact with old mates.
AWESOME people all around.
Found people which i was looking for since i was 7. wont let them leave me, ever.
Laughs and smiles I want to bring them everytime, even though i can't do it much now as distances cuts it off... but i never want them to feel alone and less. I never gona let people around me feel like i felt.
My family was, is and will always be the anchor that keeps me from hurting completely. friends are the supporting ropes. And I am the ship who is between sailing away or keeping still. Both outcomes nor hurt nor damage. But those around it does.
The never ending battle that only time would bring out the ruling winner.

So that's my story, without much detail as i have blanks in my memory caused by different events. ¬_¬ or I just have a crappy memory. heheh.
I hope/wish to get better at everything i decide to do. and people can appreciate it in the end. as everything just has an ENd ...

until its our turn
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Lastly HOME by Gabriela Aplin , pretty much sums it up. :3
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With stressful life exercise helps to get rid of the horrible feelings of disappointing or just failing in any way. 
With a busy life, exercise is a luxury.
Stress builds up.
News come around and show that one UNSUCCESSFUL, sorry. Not worth enough for them, they rather have paper pretty than pretty person.
Its ok, there are other 3 more to come.
Cant shake the feeling they'll be just like this one. And i keep fooling myself.
Everyone has told me, "Why do you keep trying that? why dont you just do this? You should have another plan"
I CANT I DONT F@*&£ WANT TO
I want to be who i want to be, why can't people let me?
If they only meet me, just get to know me, they can see I am much better that a f@$&£ piece of paper.
I dont wanna feel anymore
It's not worth it. I really wish not to feel so i dont waste time on fixing them so I can give them the F$*£%& pretty piece of paper they want.
  • Mood: Pain
OK it might be either im very tired or just extremely inspired.

Listening to some ol' songs, from disney films, (i would say they were made 1980's 1970's but they feel older) 
I coulndt help but feel REALLY nostalgic, maybe a lil sad, but sad in the sense of missed as if I had had an experience with that song and my soul is responding to it. 
So i had the thought, maybe i have had some moment with that song in my past life; went to a dance or so... dunno.. ¬_¬ maybe watching Once upon a time (on Netflix) might have caused this. but heck it really makes me feel which i try to avoid coz it's easier to concentrate in other things. 
I just thought writing this down in case others have had this feelings and stuff, so yeah they dont think they are going insane, such as i feel like I'm. ^_^ 

DEFINITELY I was born in the wrong timeline -_-'  
  • Mood: Happy Tears
  • Listening to: lily's awesome playlist
  • Reading: Percy Jackson and SAGA
  • Watching: Fairy tale.. and many more films.. to actually n
  • Playing: dota2 lol warframe
  • Eating: fish cakes rule
  • Drinking: tea
There are days, actually... there are little moments of which I have this overly charged hatred for life, people and my failures. 
And Yet there a small tiny, moments, I am overwhelmed with a weird feeling of pure happiness and over-joy; almost fairy tale love feeling. But for life, for the hopefulness I see in people, specially in devianart, where i can see many people which are hurt, sad and darn right borderline, but they rather show that through their words, drawings than just giving up. I started looking more into those drawings and artists. See them progress and its like they are telling a story each one of their pieces; all of them seem to be improving. 
Then I see myself, I want to be like them. I want to improve. -_- but I'm a lazy person when it comes to drawing I guess.. hehe 



I know for a fact that people aren't happy with other people's happiness, some want to be and try their best which I respect. But to be truly a person who wants others to be happy, they got to give up their own.

That is my new Years resolution. I am going to make people happy around me, know, unknown and those who hate/dislike me, I will try my best with them to make them their happiest.  
So if I can help people by drawing things which will make them give that feeling of hope, or just weird giggly happy laugh, then I shall step up. 
  • Mood: Happy Tears
  • Listening to: lily's awesome playlist
  • Reading: Percy Jackson and SAGA
  • Watching: Fairy tale.. and many more films.. to actually n
  • Playing: dota2 lol warframe
  • Eating: fish cakes rule
  • Drinking: tea
With stressful life exercise helps to get rid of the horrible feelings of disappointing or just failing in any way. 
With a busy life, exercise is a luxury.
Stress builds up.
News come around and show that one UNSUCCESSFUL, sorry. Not worth enough for them, they rather have paper pretty than pretty person.
Its ok, there are other 3 more to come.
Cant shake the feeling they'll be just like this one. And i keep fooling myself.
Everyone has told me, "Why do you keep trying that? why dont you just do this? You should have another plan"
I CANT I DONT F@*&£ WANT TO
I want to be who i want to be, why can't people let me?
If they only meet me, just get to know me, they can see I am much better that a f@$&£ piece of paper.
I dont wanna feel anymore
It's not worth it. I really wish not to feel so i dont waste time on fixing them so I can give them the F$*£%& pretty piece of paper they want.
  • Mood: Pain

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vesssel Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015
Thanks for the fave! Feel free to check out my Facebook page for more art. :D
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Lolita-Artz Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank You ^=^ by LOVEMAYU  When You Dont See The Light by Lolita-Artz Press Watch by TouchofArtistry
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sksuijilil Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi, thank you very much for the fave on "Azure Soul [Finished]"!:) I'm glad you like it!:D I appreciate it!XD
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Rinka-tan Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch!:)
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MonsieF Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for the fav!! :)
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Lazmarr Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist
Hey I found you ^_^Preview
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AlexFarrowHamblen Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey Buddy!
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jokelily Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013
HEYY Buddy :3 derpicorgi.deviantart.com/
that's Chloe's, i hope i wasnt too late like always :( 
or my great skills of finding worked so you didnt need a link :L
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DerpiCorgi Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2013  Student General Artist
(Tag a quality deviant, You’re it! Quality doesn’t mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! ♥)

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jokelily Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2013
What is love? ...... baby dont hurt me... dont hurt me... no more.... 
WHAt IS LOVE?! :3 
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